2005-03-17 :: 11:51 p.m.
A lot of things for school were due. Presentations to be presented, papers to be turned in, midterms to be study for. My 7 - 8:50pm Tuesday class is FINALLY over. Thank goodness. I stayed up until 4am Tuesday morning. Got about four hours of sleep. And Thursday morning I stayed up until 2am writing papers and study study study. School is going pretty well. I am not failing any of my classes and know that I at least have a B in all of them. If not better. Semester's half over.
I'm excited about summer. I am taking a speech class and some kind of dance class. I might take another class, but I haven't decided yet. All I know is that by the end of spring semester, I'd finished 24 units and need 36 more to be able to transfer.
I have decided that my major will be fashion. Some kind of fashion merchandising, or anything relating to fashion. I also wanna do marketing because I'm sure if I want to eventually sell my own clothing line, I am gonna have to know how to market, so I will probably major in fashion and minor in marketing. I am still interested in public relations and journalism, but I think I'm better off with fashion because every itsy bitsy free time I have, I'm online looking at clothes too expensive for me to buy and flipping through magazines. I'm pretty excited now that I've got this whole major stuff figured out.
In other news, Ty went to take his driver's license test on Wednesday. Unfortunately, he didn't pass but he has another test on Monday so hopefully he'll pass that one. I lost one of the earrings he gave me for Valentine's Day. The one that matches the bracelet. I lost it at Chuck E Cheese. I was so so sad because the earrings are so gorgeous. He wasn't mad, he was more accepting that I was. I am sad.
Things are going pretty good between us. He's been pretty affectionate to me lately. More than he used to be. And he has definitely treated me better...calling me, joking around with me, etc. Oh and I went to my first street race last weekend! A cop came and we all had to sped away. It was hella exciting but I'm not sure if I want to go every weekend. Ty was so pumped him. He was really excited and wants to go again this weekend. HA. Our anniversary is in six days. Crazy. 15 whole months and still together. Oh and the good thing is I haven't thought about breaking up for a long time. I remember when we fought all the time and wanted to break up every other day. But yeah, stuff is good.
Oh and I might have tuberculosis. I think that's how you spell it. Anyway, I had a skin test and it came out positive. I have a big fat ass bump that's all swelled up on my arm. It's supposed to go away in 3-4 days but it's super itchy but I can't scratch it or put anything on it. I had to go get an x-ray exam today. I won't find out if I have it or not until Monday.
For those of you who don't know much about TB, it's a disease that's spread through the air. Say someone has it and they sneeze or cough. The bacteria may be in the air that you are breathing and if you breathe it, there's a possibility of you getting TB. As far as I know, it is not deadly and all you'd need to do is take medicine.
There are two types of TB. One is latent TB and the other one is TB. Latent TB is the minor type of TB. I would have no symtomps or feel sick. My skin test would come out positive but my x-ray should be pretty normal. I would not be able to spread this disease, if I have the minor one. The regular TB is more complicated because you do feel sick and have symtomps. Your skin test would come out positive and your x-ray would not look normal. And obviously, you'd be able to spread it. If I do have it, I'm sure I have the minor kind because I don't feel sick or anything. Of course, I would hope I don't have it at all!
I wish I had time to update this diary more but I am so busy. At least I have been busy. I'm always at work, school or spending time with ty. And whatever free time I have is spent doing homework, sleeping, eating or in the bathroom. It's pretty nutty. But I am looking forward to spring break because I won't have to worry about school until Monday night before school is back on Tuesday! HA!
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2005-03-08 :: 12:40 a.m.
ty got me these gorgeous earrings that matches the bracelet he got me back in november. he got me a white teddy bear also. it's cute. valentine's day didn't go too well for us though...long long story.
um, we've had a few fights since then too. last week between wednesday through saturday was just bad. everyday it was fight fight fight. and it wasn't even over anything big...really lame, little stuff that won't matter a week from now. but you know, i don't easily give up in an argument, and he's competitive so we just keep it going.
he got me a couple cute cards to make up for this one huge fight. on one of them he wrote, "you'll never know how truly sorry i am, so i got you this card to help me." i wanna cry every time i read it because it's so rare for him to do something like this.
anyway, since sunday everything's been pretty good. i am slowly but surely learning to trust him. over the last three weeks, shit has happened that's made me lose almost all trust but he's been good to me lately. i still doubt him here and there, but for the most part, we are okay.
i am just so glad that he's so patient with this relationship. i know that a lot of guys wouldn't bother putting up with shit i throw out there. and often times, i doubt that he even loves me but then i remember when his mom, who i respect a lot, told me that he just adores me and that i'm his first serious girlfriend. he's never even been with anyone this long. neither have i. his last relationship only lasted 8 months. in about two weeks, we'll be celebrating our 15 month. crazyness.
oh yeah, he got his permit! jesus, FINALLY!!! i am so happy for him. his license test is on the 21st and i know he's gonna pass that one with flying colors.
also, he got me another promise ring because i, uh, kinda lost the last one. oops... i really like this one a lot better though. i picked it out myself. i picked out the last one too but it was kinda big and bling and looked more like an engagement ring. if ya'll forgot, we originally got it for our april fool's prank on his mom that we had gotten engaged. anyway, this new ring is so gorgeous. i love it. and it fits just right because it's a size smaller. i have tiny fingers, i'm a size 5. anyway, it's a wedding band type of ring. it's a simple small silver ring with cubic zirconia all around the ring. it's lovely. it looks like this. i like this one over the other one because i'm only 18 and i don't want some big bling engagement looking ring on my finger and the new one is so simply stated. it's small but not overlooked. it is so pretty. i never want to take it off.
other than that, i am looking for another job because i'm sick of red lobster and not getting promoted because they are fucking dumb. school is going well also, midterms are this week and spring break is in 2 weeks! YES! i have no plans though...i just wanna relaaaaaaaaax. my tuesday 7-8:50pm classes end just before spring break. i am so glad because when i come back i only have to go 12pm to 7pm tuesdays and thursdays instead of until 9pm. yay.
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2005-02-11 :: 9:47 a.m.
speaking of ty, he turns 21 today. i don't know what we are doing, but i am taking him out to dinner. it's a little weird that he is a lot older than me. i mean, he is only 2 years and ten months older than me but because i am only 18, that feels like such a large gap.
and while i am at it, i am starting to seriously think that we have no future in this relationship. we are just way too different. i am hard working and ambitious. i have goals and things i want to do and i will do whatever the hell it takes to achieve them. he's lazy and doesn't like to work. he has goals but doesn't seem to be making any steps towards them. and if he is, they're baby steps. we have different opinions on a lot of things and i just don't feel respected and appreciated enough.
i don't know if i am feeling like this now because we have been together so long that we have been through so much and i can step back and think about all the shit he has put me through. or if it's because i have this guy at school who wouldn't stop flirting at me, or this guy at work who tells me how cute i am ten times a day. so far it's innocent flirting. i mean, yeah i flirt back but it's not like i give them my numbers or anything. but it hurts me every time he tells me i'm cute and to know that my boyfriend's called me cute probably a total of 5 times throughout our entire relationship.
and the worst part is he likes to tell me when he sees some cute chick or if some chick hit on him. and i've told him plenty of times that i don't want to hear some chick hitting on him. why would you call some other chick cute and now your own girlfriend, i asked. he said that he's with me, that should be enough. the fact that we're together means he thinks i'm hot, otherwise we wouldn't. that's what he told me.
anyway, we're gonna see how it goes. i'm starting to lose my patience in this relationship more and more. i miss being single sometimes. i miss flirting. all i know is if things doesn't get better soon (it has been a year, a month and 18 days after all), it's gonna be over.
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2005-30-01 :: 12:55 p.m.
i should really be in bed. i have an emergency meeting at work to attend in about 8 hours and have to work (as usual) in ten hours. sigh. and to make it worse, my nose is really stuffy and my throat hurts. second cold of the season...should have really gotten a flu shot. tomorrow i hope to go to church after i get off work and then catch up on my homework and sleep before we go to the show! definitely won't forget cameras this time...like we did to the boyz II men concert.
